A meditation on love or What do I think when I think about love

"I'm not interested in how people move; I'm interested in what makes them move.”

Pina Bausch

For the sake of the argument I want to compare love to money. In order to give some away, you need to have access to some, you need to have some. And I would be happy with this if I wouldn't know how (as I see it) the whole secret with money (and it's flow) actually lies in the space of “the financial” - meaning money which does not really exist. So we make money and bet money and sell money that is not physically there.

And I don't even want to go into the belief system of the Money in general - meaning that the whole convention of Money basically depends on OUR mutual agreement that this special, fancy paper actually represents value. Or even HAS value. Owns value?

Still, I base my following theory on the notion of needing to have in order to give away.

What that would mean emotionally is as follows. One needs to have access to love, one needs to have love in order to show love and give love to another.

So where is it that we “have love”?

I believe (and I consciously switch to belief system now) that by finding love towards the Self - one gets in touch with love, one starts to understand it and meet it and grow it.

At this point what I mean with Love towards self is - self-respect, for example.

The moment in which one gives him/herself space to be who one is. Fully and unconditionally.

One stops censoring and editing oneself and learns how to face the world from that point of view.

Generally, at this stage fear presents itself as an obstacle.

Maybe more than why I would ask how do we recognize it but not let it take power upon the state of us?

I would like to present the priority of being honest to the Self before the priority to the SuperEgo or Id (if I borrow on Freud's vocabulary).

This implies work, actually. Work in Self-discovery. Individually. Singularly.

Recognizing Fear and walking, nevertheless.

Making choices that might make us self-conscious, that might make us feel like we are out of control - I want to point out now that the feeling of control itself is WHAT?

What is making us feel that we have control anyway and what is this control?

The feeling of security that comes out of routine?

We are alone, our own masters of everything and no one can influence us?

And is that what we want to be?

Finally, rather that being alone one can be together.

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Yours truly.