On temptation or Letting go

“The temptation to wait until the perfect situation and the right people are in place before you make your best effort is simply avoidance. Do not wait. Your dedication to the given circumstances right now, will eventually bring you closer to others who share your own belief and commitment.”

Anne Bogart, -and then, you act-

A moment:

Chopsitcks are in place, picking food of the plate and carrying it to the mouth. Chewing occurs, approx. 30 bites per load. Digestion beggins. Paralel with eating, round table small talk. Teachers, classes, relationships, who did what with whom last weekend and how does it effect the community. Back to food, then a couple of laughs. Sounds of plates being put on the bar looking thing, chatter going from louder to softer, information bursting out of peoples mouths. Busy brains, busy bodies. I lift my eyes from the plate, and there you are, looking straight at me from accross the room.

Time stops. Silence occurs. Gravity denied.

And we smile.

A moment:

Walking down the street an image comes, the golden star clip on. Sometimes on the collar, sometimes between buttons.

I realize I am not breathing.

A moment:

Going to sleep, brain burning, screaming and pushing all the desires, longings. Going to sleep, letting all the desires, longings, wishes - letting all of the wishes go. Going to sleep, surrendering to the Big Blue. Almost asleep, brain burning, screaming and pushing all the desires, longings. While I let go.

All the moments. Irresistible.