On singularity or the Wonders of a hot summer breeze

“Julia, you are the butter to my bread and the breath to my life. I love you, darling girl.”

Julie&Julia

I feel alone in the world.

Which is clearly over dramatizing the state I find myself in but here I am, alone at home, it’s me and myself, and loads of fun things to do, yet I can’t stop thinking how delightful it would be to feel fingers caressing my skin. Fingers instead of air. The beautiful warm summer air.

I see a field of wild poppy flowers. I am running through that field, with the Sun following every move I make. The joy I feel is pushing little screams of happiness out of my lungs. I am spreading my arms wide open as if to embrace an invisible soul that is there with me. Here, with me. I welcome the kick of adrenalin as I take my shirt of and throw it away into the unknown. I am running towards the river. I am excited, overwhelmed, captured by the rawness of the emotion. I am down to my underwear, running towards the water. And I jump. For a moment, the brief moment I find myself in the air, so completely free – time comes to a stop. And I endeavor in the sensation of weightlessness as I fall. Falling forever. Before hitting the cool freshness of the river. Ever moving flow of clear water. The water that supports me. The water that loves me. The water that holds me in it’s palm and takes me to the ocean and let’s me dissolve into it’s fullness.

I become the ocean.

I become the sea.

The rivers, lakes, ponds.

I evaporate.

And while cool down I am becoming clouds.

I am flying once again.

So completely free.

And then I fall.

Falling forever I am the rain. I feed the soil. I feed the Earth.

I am consumated by flora and fauna.

I am consumated by human kind.

I am being consumated by you.

I am yours.

So completely lost in your existance. While you love me and care for me. While you touch me and pleasure me. While you tear my world apart and put it back together again – I let you. I let you be my king and my queen, my light and my night. My all, my everything, forever.

Until I change my mind.