Basic Thoughts on Life or Why go through all the trouble

“If you really love me then let's make a vow. Right here, together, right now. OK? OK.”
The opening scene of Me You and Everyone We Know by Miranda July


The simplicity is one of the things that counts. Why? Because simplicity implies honesty. Why?
OK, thinking composition and being annoyed by the chair I am sitting on. The internet is not working properly in this bar, and my home will be internet-less for 5 more days so guess I just have to deal with it.
I am sitting here and thinking how to start? Where are all the ideas now that I actually decided to try and share my thoughts with the unknown. It is catching the moment of inspiration and letting the chain of thoughts run for this is how I like to write. I myself rarely read what I wrote. Somehow I like to let it run out and have somebody else continue the chain. This is why the idea of blogging hit me as interesting a couple of days ago when a friend came along and said “Hey, I got offered to write a blog for a Swedish radio station or whatever”. Obviously, he is Swedish.
I, on the other hand, am Croatian.
But to continue the thought, blog blog blog. So here I am, writing my first post.
Then I was thinking what do I have to say in my first post - and that was painful. Life, death, all the great love stories, rain, Rain, ... But how about the start itself?!

One of the questions that came across my mind while thinking about joining the blog community was commitment. Can I actually come and become a regular, posting a text once a week and be persistent - considering all the reading I want to do, photo taking and the biggest challenge - the busy busy dance student schedule. Because commitment is one of the ideas that I ponder about a lot lately. The other being responsibility. To take you through a composition workshop idea - How does a process of creation start and becomes realized. What are the possibilities? So the way I would work is mostly having an idea, an image, and then working on making it happen. But then I got a task - go and create a theme, a movement phrase, for example. And stay with it. See how it evolves and where does it take you and how does it grow.
Basically, commit to the process instead the product.
And then I started to work on it. I couldn't start being surprised how pushy the guy (leader of the workshop) was in making me go through the process until I found an interesting thing. The first day of the workshop my dancers for the week made their dance phrases and I decided and made a structure and it all functioned well. The other day I came back and said to my dancers to bare with me and forget what we have spent a lot of time on and start again working only with their movement. A couple of hours later we had 2 minutes of raw material that made my eyes fill with tears and yesterday, Friday, late in the afternoon, just before finishing off the week the material brings us to an end, to the end of the piece and we have ourselves a little history.
And then I go and say yes, this is it, this is it.

Commitment is a heavy thing. But it makes sense. Like being in a relationship, you can put up walls and protections of all kinds and live a happy life. But how happy that life really is, then. Going through with commitment, on the other hand, makes you constantly revalue your opinion and your beliefs for the sake of the other and for the sake of you mutual respect, growth and life.
And I find that a good thing.
It keeps you up to date.
Keeps you fresh and alive.
And this small victory makes it worth the while.
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There are more thoughts now on making some of my statements more specific ... but hey.
The first post is only the introduction, right?!

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